God is Trustworthy
This post is part of a month-long series reflecting on truths of Who God is through the alphabet and what those truths mean to us in the midst of our foster care journey. You can find the whole series here.
“Even if” prayers are hard.
In 2016 NP and I ventured further into the unknown. We had been foster parents for two years, and had had three babies placed with us at that time. Three babies we had loved and hoped for and grieved hard goodbyes.
And then suddenly, God steered us down a path of adoption for an older sibling pair who had been in care for years. Their story gripped us, and while the county dragged the process along for months and months before we had even met them, God continued to confirm this was what He wanted us to do.
Months went by as the agency weeded out dozens of potential families for L&P. We felt like we were being strung along- like this was some crazy adoption version of the bachelor.
We met them. We loved them. We bought bunk beds.
And then suddenly- the county picked the other family. The end. No closure. No answers. Just done. That was a strange grief, a strange goodbye- with no actual goodbye. We felt burned.
We still have no clarity from the Lord about why He took us down that road. Why He kept telling us to go when the end of the road was looming ahead.
But this is what I know- God is TRUSTWORTHY. I can trust Him even when I don’t understand. Even when it seems to make no sense. Even when we feel alone- because we aren’t.
That’s what faith is- believing Him even when we don’t see it. Even when it’s beyond our understanding. Believing He is worthy of trust- even if He doesn’t unfold the plan the way I want Him to.
“I know You're able and I know You canSave through the fire with Your mighty handBut even if You don'tMy hope is You alone”-Mercy Me