I watch a royal wedding with the world.

I smile confident to myself – someday it will be me, although much more grand.

Someday, my King will come.

Many sneer. They think me a hopeless fool, fixing my heart on this impossible dream.

It is impossible. Too good to be true, and yet I know with all my heart -

Someday, my King will come.

I have lived an unworthy life. An orphan dressed in filthy rags, nothing to catch His heart.

For reasons I will never know, He sought me, He found me, He loved & chose me as His own.

Someday, my King will come.

Some glad morning He will sweep me off my feet. He will meet me in the air and dress me in glorious white.

We will feast and celebrate and stand speechless at His glory and grace.

Someday, my King will come.

Someday.

Perhaps today.

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There is much discussion these days about theology, about what God would or would not do, of how God would or would not judge – as limited human beings we kick against Scripture that describes a God who is bigger than we can understand, more wrathful at sin than we feel comfortable with, and at the same time more gracious than we can fully comprehend. We reinterpret the Bible to make it comfortable, to reduce God to a size more understandable, to try to represent Him in ways that seem more appealing to a culture repulsed by the idea of being told our sin makes us deserving of punishment.

Here’s the thing: I do not understand God.

Yesterday I sat in church and rejoiced with our body as we welcomed a pastor who has obviously been sent by our sovereign and gracious God into our midst. He has heard our prayers. He has seen our need. He has provided. We worshiped Him with glad hearts and recognized His very tangible work in our midst.

I sat in my seat and pondered: God is good, yes. He absolutely is good and gracious and a God who hears the prayers of His people. He is also the sovereign and omnipotent God who is with our brothers and sisters in Christ who are suffering unimaginably in Japan. The earth is groaning, His people are crying out to Him, they are learning to worship Him from a place of lamentation and loss. His goodness, His character is not different in different parts of the world. His strength is not limited. We are no more deserving of His grace and care than anyone else.

I do not understand God.

There are many things I cannot fully explain to you about my God. I cannot wrap my feeble, small mind around His bigness. But I can know with certainty what I read in God’s Word.

I open my Bible and read of a great God who is unlimited in power and knowledge, unbound by time and space. I do not fully understand, but I know it with certainty to be true: His Word says it clearly.

I read of a God who is one and also three, who has existed from eternity past and will never end. When I ponder these things my brain hurts. I cannot wrap my mind around it, but I know it with certainty: His Word says it clearly.

I see in His Word and His plan that He is utterly and unspeakably holy. That no sinful man can stand in His presence. The descriptions of His holy wrath and judgment against sin make me shudder in awe – I cannot fathom this kind of holiness, this consuming fire that is my righteous Creator, but I know it with certainty: His Word says it clearly.

In my Bible I find a God who loves the lowly creatures He made. That even when they outright rebelled against Him He refused to turn His back and abandon them to their chosen path of rebellion. I meet a God who would provide a shocking way to pay the penalty for sin that His holy nature demanded, as God the Son willingly wrapped Himself in limited flesh and sacrificed Himself on our behalf. What kind of loving God is this? My heart aches at even the glimmer of recognition of this kind of love, but I know it with certainty: His Word says it clearly.

I do not fully understand my God. I cannot understand or put into words exactly how God’s sovereignty and man’s choice intersect, nor can I fully grasp the weight of eternal punishment for sin that our Bibles clearly describe. I cannot completely explain why God would allow devastating natural disasters like what we are witnessing in Japan.

But there is much I know: My God doesn’t just do good things – He IS good. My God doesn’t just love us – He IS love. He is a just, righteous, merciful, holy, sovereign, omniscient, omnipresent, indescribably awesome God. Through Him all things hold together and have their being, and nothing, NOTHING, is out of His control.

I don’t understand Him. I open my hands to Him and accept with deep gratitude the gracious gifts He has given us. We do not deserve firm ground beneath our feet and safe families more than anyone else. I do not understand why He has chosen to bless us in this moment and why His plan includes such deep suffering in Japan. I do not understand. But I trust Him. I know with certainty that He is a trustworthy God.

I’m glad He is too big for me to fathom. A God small enough for me to understand… would not be God at all.

This video is long – almost an hour and a half.

But, please find the time to watch it.

Mark Driscoll and James McDonald traveled to Haiti to begin an organization called “Churches Helping Churches.” They traveled a week after the earthquake with the intent of finding out how the local church was fairing.

It is moving. Powerful. And the church must act.

Some of the footage is graphic – please do not watch this with small children.

One of the treasures I have often turned to after my own experiences in Haiti is a little booklet from Baptist Haiti mission called God Is No Stranger – a compilation of prayers of new Haitian Christians recently converted from Voodooism.  These prayers are touching, sometimes heartbreaking, and full of honesty.  Today as we all continue to pray for the people of Haiti, I thought I would share some of their own prayers with you.

Lord, please be with your people who are suffering in Haiti.

You see their pain.

You know their faith.

As we sit in safe and comfortable houses with plenty to eat and drink, it is hard to imagine their suffering.  But you know.  Hold them tightly today, Father.

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