Soul hunger
March 11th, 2011 by Kristi Stephens
{This was originally posted in March of 2009.}
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As I mentioned in Lent, Fasting, and Other Outlandish Ideas, I am fairly new to the world of fasting and incorporating this spiritual discipline into my walk with the Lord.
I said in that aforementioned post that Richard Foster points out that fasting reveals what controls us. I must attest that this is true! I was thinking this morning that the I fast are often the roughest with my children. They’re irritable, I’m irritable, it’s often not a pretty sight. It’s hard not to get short with them when they’re following me around wining that they want a snack (after eating a whole bowl of something or another); I either catch myself eating a handful of something with them without thinking about it (Arg!) or somehow begrudge them that graham cracker as I hand it over!
I know that food is more than a survival necessity for me (unlike my husband, who doesn’t really care about eating. Seriously!) I eat when I’m bored, I eat when I’m frustrated, I eat when I’m lonely or sad… somehow we seem to use food to stuff down emotion. I often remark when we watch Biggest Loser that the trainers have to also be half-therapists for the amount of counseling they end up doing at the gym! Take away our comfort food and push us outside of what we feel capable of, and we lose it – all those emotions that we’ve expertly stuffed for so long are raw and exposed!
I’m realizing that, in a less dramatic way, fasting does this for me. When I get frustrated with the kids or start feeling trapped in the house, what do I do? Grab a snack. If I’m concerned about something or upset, what do I do? Grab a snack! Take away my snacks, and I get irritable! Not only am I hungry, but now I’m just stuck with my irritation and upsetting emotion with nothing to stuff it down with!
I had already been thinking about this today and then came across one of my favorite Psalms during my devotional time; this has always been a special passage to me, but it means even more with this framework of where my satisfaction and comfort is coming from.
O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.
I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.
Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.
I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.
My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods;
with singing lips my mouth will praise you.
Psalm 63:1-5
How often do I come to a place of realizing that I am empty and incapable, and instead of realizing that the hunger in my soul is for God, I stuff a cracker in my mouth? When I am emptied of myself, do I long for His the comfort of His presence, or for an oreo as my comfort food?
Obviously physically our bodies need food and water to survive. But are we eating to satisfy legitimate physical hunger, or are we masking the symptoms of spiritual longings for His presence? Only God can satisfy our soul “as with the richest of foods.”
How blessed is the one whom You choose and bring near to You
To dwell in Your courts
We will be satisfied with the goodness of Your house,
Your holy temple.
Psalm 65:4 (NASB)
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